About the Author:
Heather McHugh frequents the Salish Sea areas of western Washington State and southern British Columbia. ln addition to her 2009 MacArthur Fellowship, she has won many distinguished awards for writing and for teaching, having taught for decades at the University of Washington in Seattle, as well as at the MFA Program for Writers at Warren Wilson College (and elsewhere). Between 1979 and 2009, collections of her essays, translations, and original poetry regularly appeared in print, but FEELER will be her first new volume since 2009.
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Shots in the ICU
The unwritten CDs have stripes
of spectrum down their faces, there in their
transparent cases―perfect traces of
what otherwise were mere
idea or metaphor . . . some gist
or twist or history
of light. The pure
appearance of
refraction in these lines
can shift into the vertical;
it’s utterly resistant to
the daily laterals and dull
collaterals; its otherworldliness
is wildest for precision: close-up rainbow
several millimeters wide, a dwelling place
for uncontainables―in analytic radiance to run
from the outer edge of a disc straight toward
its center, not in coils, concentric (as upon his old LPs),
but deepening in radii from
two to three towards four
dimensions. His bifocals
now removed, his hopes extinguished,
Dad keeps hissing life’s a swindle. Birthing room
to deathbed, that’s the line―a legacy from sunlight, long
profession now inclined
to sharpness, as the read-outs
turn to shout-outs, shivers to Intensive Care’s
own nursing station. ere’s the backed-up
window-ledge I rest my sights upon―
the plumb-line down the centers of
the stacked CDs, unreadable until
a setting star brings out
a better sense for it in me.
The rods and cones inform a living hole
with spiked or spindly evidence. O
pupil! Crazy cornucopia! For I
was blind, and you were blind, but now
we have myopia.
One Big Being
Despite our greeds and all
Our cultural tenacities, which pull us
Back like suckers on a
Phototrope
The destiny of our
Increasing numbers on
Diminishment of ground
Is towards convergence, and
The averaging away of the extremes.
Sometimes it’s hard to read or feel it, but
In time it has to happen. Solid waters melt
To one dynamic sea, and earth flows
Up from pressure, widening to air; we cannot help
Resembling one another more and more: the races, parties,
Genders, even ages tend to lose their hallowed individualities.
A matter of techology, as well: the mind is seeded, seeding other minds
(we call this fashion, when we name the memes). So then the lines
and boundaries relent (whether of nations, or the other premises
for being here among the beasts, for being any kind at all,
a man of brown or beige, a middle age―o middle! Where
are you?―a radical, or sister, or resister? All the bodies
surge towards to merge. Only the flags and
fears pretend to
old anachronistic independences
but all in all we’re growing more and more
related, more familiar in this collectivity, our bloom
of group identity and glue, this gravitas conferred on us
by planetary etymology, I’d say, among the ever tinier and more
discriminable stars.
Lament of the Touched
For Ellen, first and last
Detachment’s being
thought achievable
is boggling in itself. Its being thought
achievable by love, a love
for all (not only every)
sentience (the human kind and
bestial alike) at times appears
the precept of
intelligences terribly
untouched. How much
of a hand in things must we
promote before
relinquishing the things at hand?
What kiss of mind would such
communal sense permit? A swirl of dust
in schools perhaps . . . Slow learners of
my ilk must spurn
the selving sensualities to feel
for feelers of this kind:
unfasten passion’s
burners to discern
whatever’s cooler under it.
In short, must court
dispassion just
to be compassionate.
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