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Even though I had arrived on time, certain events foretold a delay in my adoption. As a result, I languished in an orphanage for the first year of my life. No matter how much planning we do before an incarnation, there can be major changes if others do not play their agreed to parts. Traces of the sheer panic I felt during this period still remain today. I am sometimes unable to sleep, watching my thoughts form endlessly until dawn. At the orphanage, my dimly-lit room was filled with rows of tiny beds containing one frightened baby after another. There were so many of us that the nuns were unable to give much individual attention. Overwhelmed by all the noise around me, I was strangely sensitized to how I had died as an infant in a previous life and, inexplicably, was reminded of being thrown against a wall to stop me from crying. Upon awakening to this institutional terror, I remember how I stared in silence while night enveloped my lonely world. I gradually retreated farther and farther into the recesses of inner realms.
I definitely felt the shock of my new world, having just come from a plane where love is as abundant as air. One day, my mother simply didn't come back, and I can't begin to express the desperation I felt; I wished to go Home. In my mind's eye, I can still see her there--distraught, holding within her a heavy burden. She is watching me one last time through the wire mesh window of the children's room before her own mother pulls her away. There will be no good-byes this day, only an aching emptiness to last a lifetime in both of us.
When my new parents finally came for me, my heart was dry and sore from tears that had shattered my spirit. Wounded by solitude, my fragile body was hungry for care and love. By now the protective boundaries I had created were deeply etched within; it would be nearly impossible to regain the sense of security I'd lost. With the remembrance of this first year engraved in my soul, I began to walk the path of adoption in search of wholeness.
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